I am scared

I am scared
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– Of making mistakes in life, like maybe am just one stupid decision away from messing my entire life or the next season.

-Of the consequences of my writings like what if I lead people astray. What if I fail to live what I teach? What about my judgement?

James 3:1 – “Dear brothers and sisters, not many of you should become teachers in the church, for we who teach will be judged more strictly.

-Of this platform, the fact that I can have an influence in people’s lives and the fact that they can see me as an example or a person whose advice they can listen to.

-Of putting what I do for God, first. and putting Jesus, not so far that I can reach Him when I remember or need something from Him.

-Of changing my focus and the reason why i started, to the extent that i am waking up in the morning and wondering how can I gain more followers or what should I write and say before spending time with the Lord, who I say I am doing His work.

-Of wanting so much to please my readers with my content.

-Of loosing it, to the extent i am worrying about who unsubscribed and why I still have 70 followers on my Instagram

-Of being drained by the rat race,envy and comparison. Hustling for success that the hustle takes my happiness and love for the journey.

-Of changing, like completely change negatively to the extent that I don’t even remember who I am anymore. And the people who love me, leave me.

-Of going to hell, like what if I just die a sinner and go to hell.

-Of being in a bad company, like the friends that I find take me to a wrong path.

-Of loosing my mom

-Of being too vulnerable, to the extent that you know me so much even when I never wanted you to know about me.

-Of being too successful, I think I don’t need God anymore. Or I forget where I come from.

-Of using people, sometimes I feel like that’s what we all do. Act interested enough to make you believe that we are, but all we want is for you to subscribe and buy things.

-Of not speaking the truth of the gospel, because I need your money, or because I need you to subscribe

-of fame and how it messes up your mind and changes you

-Of not becoming prideful to the extent that I am not teachable. And also not getting my message from God from the messengers I have decided not to be associated with.. Example, prophets for now.

-Of questioning everything, and unbelief

-Of deciding to do what sells, for now motivation speech does. And so stop evangelizing all together and go that side.

-Of hurting others unintentionally.

-Of the future.

However, my fear reminds me that I constantly need God, I need Him every second, minute and hour. And that I can never do it on my own strength. And that I need prayers, please pray for me.


Eunice Tossy

7 thoughts on “I am scared

  1. God loves you more than how you see your life, more than what you face, more than what the future might hold, more than anything that can be imagined by our human brains.
    Just trust in him, obey his commandments and seek his face always.

  2. Thank God for his mercy when we slip up, His grace to do His Will and for His forsight that ensures that wour future is safe for He goes before us!

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